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Dear breath of fresh air,
You caught me by surprise, I won't lie. Well, I would to your face, but not here. From the moment I shook your hand and met your eye I knew you'd be trouble. The good kind of trouble, of course, but still trouble.
There was a twinge -- just a flicker, a few weeks ago. There was a little girl who I was helping. I was with her a long time, trying to pick out the right thing for her and when we finally found it, she ran past you to her mom, and I trailed behind. You gave her a smile, and told her how cute her choice was. Right then, in something so simple, there it was. Not strong, but enough for me to throw me off balance for a second, and that is hard to do. I wasn't expecting it, but it was there -- the bittersweet taste of something you could almost want. And perhaps in that brief moment, I did.
I have no intention of fooling myself into thinking it is, or ever will be for that matter, anything. It's not something I want nor need, and I have a hunch you'd say something of the same. My heart is not meant to belong to you, nor yours to me, but thank you. Thank you for the distraction, and for those few sweet memories that will always make me smile a little. Here's hoping for a few more before the tides change and I find a job that doesn't make me feel like a failure every other day I'm there. Not that I'd ever admit that ever admit either of those -- especially not the last part. That's the trick though, isn't it? Pretend you know it all, and never let the rest of it show.
You can fool the world, I would know.
-Dusk
You caught me by surprise, I won't lie. Well, I would to your face, but not here. From the moment I shook your hand and met your eye I knew you'd be trouble. The good kind of trouble, of course, but still trouble.
There was a twinge -- just a flicker, a few weeks ago. There was a little girl who I was helping. I was with her a long time, trying to pick out the right thing for her and when we finally found it, she ran past you to her mom, and I trailed behind. You gave her a smile, and told her how cute her choice was. Right then, in something so simple, there it was. Not strong, but enough for me to throw me off balance for a second, and that is hard to do. I wasn't expecting it, but it was there -- the bittersweet taste of something you could almost want. And perhaps in that brief moment, I did.
I have no intention of fooling myself into thinking it is, or ever will be for that matter, anything. It's not something I want nor need, and I have a hunch you'd say something of the same. My heart is not meant to belong to you, nor yours to me, but thank you. Thank you for the distraction, and for those few sweet memories that will always make me smile a little. Here's hoping for a few more before the tides change and I find a job that doesn't make me feel like a failure every other day I'm there. Not that I'd ever admit that ever admit either of those -- especially not the last part. That's the trick though, isn't it? Pretend you know it all, and never let the rest of it show.
You can fool the world, I would know.
-Dusk
