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I lost your heart to falling stars that keep me dreaming.
My world is finally stablizing. I'm both relieved and slightly bored of just the thought of it.
I finally did all of the adulty type things I mentioned however many posts again. Though, I tried very hard to not do any of them. Procrastion doesn't work as well anymore. But, now I know more than anyone could ever really want to about buying health insurance. I also almost got yelled at by a person on the phone while handling the health insurance stuff and then told, with real sincerity, to take care of myself by that same person. It was kind of touching, in a slightly odd way.
I bought a brand new car that I named Star Lord, and now also know more about buying a car than I ever wanted to know. Buying a car made me realize just how accurate people are when they say that buying new glasses is like buying a car. I think I became a better salesperson from that experience. I was just looking for a picture of him to post and I don't have any, lol. Tomorrow! The freedom to drive wherever I want is there now. Though, I haven't gone far yet. The point is I can now. If I want to go spend a day lounging on a beach in Michigan, I can do that. If I want to take a road trip to California, I now have a car that can do just that. I didn't want to add more to my debt amount, but this is a car I'll drive for 10+ years hopefully. The knowledge that if I truly wanted to just keep driving to wherever I could is quite a comfort, actually.
And now, I just spend my time working to pay off student loans and get myself to the next destination. I would be lying if there wasn't a part of me that is happy for the stability and knowing that most days are pretty easy. I would also be lying if I didn't say there were days I wished for the uncertainy of not knowing what a day would bring on the road.
I still feel just as lost as before, but now I don't have anything else I need to be doing other than figuring out what in the world I'm going to do with the rest of my life and enjoying life as it is right now.
I finally did all of the adulty type things I mentioned however many posts again. Though, I tried very hard to not do any of them. Procrastion doesn't work as well anymore. But, now I know more than anyone could ever really want to about buying health insurance. I also almost got yelled at by a person on the phone while handling the health insurance stuff and then told, with real sincerity, to take care of myself by that same person. It was kind of touching, in a slightly odd way.
I bought a brand new car that I named Star Lord, and now also know more about buying a car than I ever wanted to know. Buying a car made me realize just how accurate people are when they say that buying new glasses is like buying a car. I think I became a better salesperson from that experience. I was just looking for a picture of him to post and I don't have any, lol. Tomorrow! The freedom to drive wherever I want is there now. Though, I haven't gone far yet. The point is I can now. If I want to go spend a day lounging on a beach in Michigan, I can do that. If I want to take a road trip to California, I now have a car that can do just that. I didn't want to add more to my debt amount, but this is a car I'll drive for 10+ years hopefully. The knowledge that if I truly wanted to just keep driving to wherever I could is quite a comfort, actually.
And now, I just spend my time working to pay off student loans and get myself to the next destination. I would be lying if there wasn't a part of me that is happy for the stability and knowing that most days are pretty easy. I would also be lying if I didn't say there were days I wished for the uncertainy of not knowing what a day would bring on the road.
I still feel just as lost as before, but now I don't have anything else I need to be doing other than figuring out what in the world I'm going to do with the rest of my life and enjoying life as it is right now.