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kaia ([personal profile] kaia) wrote2014-12-08 09:30 pm
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These days you don't know who you are.

Blame WoW for me being away for a while. I would be lying if I said it wasn't amazing to have been lost in Azeroth again for a while. WoW was always so good at getting me to forget about the things that bothered me.

I realized I go from one extreme to the other; I'll fly half-way across the world for months and then I'll sit around and not go anywhere other than my house for months. I haven't even been going out with friends when invited. I just kind of avoid it. I didn't even go hiking this fall, and I LOVE hiking in the fall.

I go through these cycles now. I'll be happy and hopeful for a few weeks, thinking about how okay life currently is. Then, I'll get weeks where I resent having to go into work. I'll inwardly curse every person that pulls up to the store. Right now, I'm just getting back into the happy feelings. It is probably Christmas, to be honest. I used to love Christmas, then I started working at a mall. I don't know how you can work at a mall and love Christmas.

This is all over the place. It's like, I'm not sad right now, but I'm not really happy either. And I don't know what will change that. 
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[identity profile] latrans.livejournal.com 2014-12-09 03:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I know that feel. I mean, I basically lived in a tent/out of my car from May-August this year, but September-now? lol COUCH POTATO. I did go hiking a couple of times, but I usually go multiple times a week, so.

There is nothing that crushes the holiday spirit more than working in retail.

[identity profile] kayaiem.livejournal.com 2014-12-09 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I think it's funny that you and another LJ friend of mine both started your entries about being lost in WoW XD

I hope you have a good holiday season :)

[identity profile] atlantisburning.livejournal.com 2014-12-09 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I've been losing myself to Warcraft a lot lately, too. This new xpac has been uh-may-zing!

[identity profile] ragnarok-08.livejournal.com 2014-12-09 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I know that feeling all too well.

*hugs*

[identity profile] passionrlsusall.livejournal.com 2014-12-12 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I get that way too- one extreme or another, being that my life (aka job world) has been so seasonal. And moodiness for sure.
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[personal profile] artemis_wandering 2014-12-21 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, gosh, I am so with you on retail and Christmas. It really doesn't help when people (including bosses) suck, the additional insane amount of merch in backrooms, and having to work the whole damn week. I am a total Grinch now. Like, I like watching Christmas movies, but dealing with Christmas in RL just makes me grumpy and I don't feel any spirit at all.
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