kaia

Blame WoW for me being away for a while. I would be lying if I said it wasn't amazing to have been lost in Azeroth again for a while. WoW was always so good at getting me to forget about the things that bothered me.

I realized I go from one extreme to the other; I'll fly half-way across the world for months and then I'll sit around and not go anywhere other than my house for months. I haven't even been going out with friends when invited. I just kind of avoid it. I didn't even go hiking this fall, and I LOVE hiking in the fall.

I go through these cycles now. I'll be happy and hopeful for a few weeks, thinking about how okay life currently is. Then, I'll get weeks where I resent having to go into work. I'll inwardly curse every person that pulls up to the store. Right now, I'm just getting back into the happy feelings. It is probably Christmas, to be honest. I used to love Christmas, then I started working at a mall. I don't know how you can work at a mall and love Christmas.

This is all over the place. It's like, I'm not sad right now, but I'm not really happy either. And I don't know what will change that.