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We are all living the same way. We are all escaping the same way.

This summer seems so far away and I'm wanting to keep hold of it, but I can't. I miss waking up in the morning and not knowing what the day might bring. I wake up now and it's school or work. There are no adventures or train rides. There's books and tests and angry customers. That is what my days consist of, with some laughter in between. I know it is temporary, but I hate having everyday of the week outlined for me.

I don't think it has quite hit me I'm done with school in less than a year. This time next year, I could be in Peru. I could be at Machu Picchu. It doesn't even seem possible. I applied for graduation a few weeks ago and it help like any other school task online. A girl, I don't even know her name just that she looks like Megan Fox, was sitting with us for lunch the day after I said that I did it and she said it must have felt so good to hit that button. It didn't though. It didn't feel like anything.

I don't know what life is without school. I've never been without school. I think it'll be fun to find out, but I should be terrified and I'm not yet.

It is also funny. The most worthwhile class I've taken in college, out of every single semseter, is the yoga class I'm currently in. Yoga is so different when you're in a class than my at home practice. I walk out of there with such an appreciation for life and in the best mood.

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Not being in school is definitely a bizarre feeling. I miss learning things. I try to challenge myself by buying books on subjects that I find interesting, but it's not the same.

Are you applying for schools in Peru?

I think I'll miss it when I'm done, at least parts of it. I can do without the insane tests and having to take subjects I don't like, but I will miss taking classes I haven't before and find that I enjoy them despite thinking I won't.

Nah, I'm just looking at taking a trip there after I graduate as a gift to myself. It is one of the places I have wanted to go forever, so I figure it's a good start to my world traveling.

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Getting an A does feel awesome, but when I don't get an okay grade it just makes me feel awful. Especially when I think I did okay. There are parts of school I absolutely love, but then there's the bad parts such as projects I don't enjoy doing or having to take classes on subjects I have no interest in whatsoever.

I agree. It definitely has helped me get through this semester so far.

Oh wow. It's almost as if I wrote this entry. I just applied for graduation with the same feelings.

I loved my college yoga class too. It made all those chemistry courses bearable. XD

Do you think you're going to continue doing it at home alone or are you going to look for another yoga class to attend in a studio?

It is weird. I guess I never thought I'd be done, like I'd be in school for the rest of my life.

Yes! I have to go to O. Chem lab right after yoga on Mondays and I don't know how I would get through that lab without having yoga before it. I walk in so calm and focused, "in touch with the universe" is what my o. chem professor likes to call it.

I'm not sure yet. The instuctor teachers her own classes elsewhere, but just taking the one class has helped me so much with my at home practice too. I think I'm going to wait and see once the class is over if I can hold onto that feeling when doing my own practices, if not I'll definitely look into finding local classes.

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Oh wow, your professor even noticed and commented? That's really awesome.

I like school too, as you do learn new things and get to work hard...and yet it brings a lot of anxiety back. :/

It does, and sometimes I can't stand the amount of work. I don't mind some homework, but I don't want to have to spend all of my freetime focusing all on school.

Routines can be quite humdrum.

I don't know what life is without school. I've never been without school. I think it'll be fun to find out, but I should be terrified and I'm not yet. I'm not at the place in my life where I can conceivably believe that I am ready for the "real world". School does bring anxiety and humdrum-ness, but the learning and the friendships that develop just from being in the same class really stick with you throughout your life. I think that you still have a lot of time to explore the world, and that you will use your time wisely :)

I can't say I'm ready either, but I don't know what I would even need to do to be ready. I do so many things without a plan and without thinking, that I figure I can just get by like that forever. I feel the pressure of finding a good, steady job but I can't say that is what I want as soon as I gradute. I want to work, but I really want to find something I love rather than just settle for whatever I can find.

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I hate falling into the same routine over and over. I'm making plans for Christmas break to break up the same old every day, so that is something to look forward to. And, that I'll be completely done with Organic Chem by then. ;D

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It is amazing. <3

I'm in exactly the same boat. I find it crazy that in just six months I'll be done with Uni - I'm pretty sure I'm gonna end up freaking out nearer the time. Like you, I've never not been in som form of education, what am I supposed to do without it? How do I become an adult?! o.O

I know! I don't even know where to start. I have a feeling I'll graduate and just sit around for a while wonder what in the world I should be doing now. Whenever I have a longer break and have no homework at all, I still find myself feeling like I have some somewhere I should be doing for the first couple days. I figure it'll be something like that, before I start trying to figure it out.

Life sure is nicer in the summer. I miss it too.

Graduating is scary, all of a sudden you need to figure out what to do with the rest of your life and make up your own schedule. I am still figuring it all out. But I think the freedom to do what you want without having to worry about studying for your next exams or paper writing makes it worth it.

It really is. It feels so much simpler then.

I think it will as well. I know there are parts of school I'm going to miss, but it's also a chapter of my life that needs to be over in order for me to move on.

Hello, new friend!

I'm with you on missing summer. Things are a lot more simple and care-free in the summer.

I also feel you on the what life is like outside of school. I felt the same way my senior year. I never really felt terrified about it, just weird. No more studying, no more late-night essays. (Then again, I'm a teacher, so I'm never going to be completely without school; I'm just on the other side of it.)

Yoga = <3

Hello!

I think I realize it's time to be done with school, at least for a while. I'm not ruling grad school out, but I have to make sure it is what I want to do first. I need to see how life is without school and what I even want to do before I commit to that.

Not being in school is very strange when it's something you've been accustomed to your entire life. On the bright side, it will leave more time for new adventures and experiences :]

I really need to take a yoga class. I've tried it on my own at home, but you're not the first person who's mentioned it's totally different as part of a group.

I actually miss waking up and knowing I'd have class or have to go to the lab, but that's just me.

Ahhhh, graduation. It's a really surreal feeling, and frankly, being done with school kind of...is best described as a giant block of summer. It's hard to adjust to things without school.

I didn't read the comments before posting, and now I see I'm not the only one who thought graduation was surreal!

I hate waking up so much, lol.

I think it is going to take me a while to adjust. I figure it'll feel just like summer for a while, before I realize there isn't another semester coming. I don't know what I'll do with all the free time.

The first time I went to college, I took a yoga class. 20 years later, I still do yoga every day. It's one of the most valuable classes I ever took.

I am envious, a bit, of your upcoming adventures. Graduation probably won't feel real until the ceremony, and that may be more surreal than real. Enjoy it, document it as you can, and keep sharing it, please.

Yes! Even just mediating can be so beneficial, just taking a moment to breath and center. I'm going to carry the class with me forever.

I don't think I could stop sharing even if I wanted to. <3

I'm in the same boat. I was making my schedule for next semester and calculating what I have left. It's crazy. I graduate next fall, which is way too soon lol.
I wish my school was allowed to teach yoga. I'm currently taking pilates, which is good thus far.

It does feel soon to me too, but then looking back, I didn't realize just how much I've gone through. It is hard to believe just a few years ago I was a senior in high school and a completely different person than I am right now.

I like pilates as well!

Same.. Though, high school was five years ago for me now. haha.

It's nice! I like that I don't get overly sweaty lol

I'm done school for good in less than 2 months. I am terrified. I don't know life without school. Eek

It'll be find to out what life is without school. :D

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